My new motto:
"Getting shot up to get knocked up!"
Polyp is gone. My uterus looks "boring" which is a good thing. We are clear to start round #2 Gonal-f FSH injections. I need to stay calm and positive I just don't know how to. I'm going to rely on my faith and trust God will take care of everything. I'm so so so so so so nervous. Scott said he was excited to start the shots again- that made me so happy when he said that because sometimes I don't know how he feels about all of this. He's not like me with showing emotion/feelings (what man is??) I have mixed emotions about all of this. I know I want to do this again but sometimes I can't believe what we are doing to get pregnant! And the what-ifs... Mainly, what if I miscarry again? How will I deal with that again? And if I do get pregnant I'm going to be a freak and not lift a damn finger b/c I will try to do anything I did last time I was pregnant b/c what if doing that made me miscarry (cleaning, picking up cat, laying on stomach) Of course my RE told me it was nothing I did or did not do that caused the miscarriage but still- If I am pregnant I am going to lay perfectly still on my back and not do anything besides shower and go to work and sit at my desk! LOL. I know I'm being extreme but this is how I will act I know it! OK- one day at a time. Guess I better get ready to LOVE needles again. Here we go....
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