Staring at my phone.

Follow up with Moretuzzo last Friday went OK. My polyp came back normal. My ovaries and uterus are resting and I'm clear to go! But wait- it's not that simple. I asked Dr. if I can try and schedule retrieval around the week of Aug. 18th because Scott will be on vacation that week. He explained to me that he doesn't want me to be on birth control for more than 7 weeks. 7 weeks was the max number of weeks he wanted me to be on the active pills for. Once he said "max" I said forget it. Let's start sooner. I told Dr. if this doesn't work I will think its because I was on birth control the "max" number of weeks so we agreed that we will schedule consent signing (basically signing a zillion waivers stating I understand the zillion things that could go wrong- and handing over $7,500) on Monday July 21st and start my meds that day as well.
I got a call on Monday from another nurse (Not main IVF nurse) and she says Dr. wants me to wait some more and continue taking active birth control and it is OK to do so. Her explanation for this was the main nurse is out of office until Friday- which is today July 18th and SHE has to set us my consent signing. PLUS Moretuzzo forgot when I saw him last Friday that is out of the office on Monday the 21st (He has to be present for consent signing). Confused yet??? I am.

So basically staring at my phone waiting for main nurse to call to tell me when consent signing is, when to stop birth control, and when I'm going to be starting injections. OH and answer the 100 questions and concerns I have about being on active birth control so long and how it can effect my egg numbers and egg quality AND what if I start my period after starting stims?? Will this effect my uterine lining? I've been googling crap all week. Dr. Google is bad. Very bad!

WHY ISNT MY PHONE RINGING??????

Well I had to call the Dr. Office twice and I finally got a call a little after 5P.M. The nurse gave me a choice of when we can come in to do consent signing and go over meds. Sat, Sun or next Thursday. Sunday was out because it was my Godsons baptism. I didn't want to wait or call off work Thursday so we opted for 8:45A.M the next morning. Which kind of ruined our date plans we had planned for that day but what are you going to do??? We need to get this train rolling!! So, up at 5A.M., out the door at 7. Drop C off at in-laws at 7:30, in Akron for our 8:45 appointment, write a huge check, get blood work, talk with Dr. who answers to all of my questions and concerns, (and who jokingly looks at me like I'm semi crazy) sign paperwork similar to a house closing, then get prepped for another u/s.
Basically Dr. Tells me my ovaries need a lot of medicine based on what he's seeing and mentions my "low" ovarian reserve. Low has never been used before. It was always "borderline".
Not comforting at all. My fear is that I have crappy quantity and quality eggs. I of course want an answer to this 9 year battle. But am I ready for it? It's incredibly hard for someone to tell you there's something not normal with you and you did nothing to make it that way, and you can't fix it no matter what you do.
After u/s we met with nurse so she can go over all our meds. It was the most overwhelming 30 minutes of my life!!!! So many medications! Injectibles and oral. There's also when to take each one, how long, where to inject, how to mix, etc., etc., etc. When we left I just looked at Scott and said HOLY SHIT and laughed. That's literally all I could do. I ordered all my injectibles and they are getting delivered tomorrow and picked up all my orals at Giant Eagle today. Wednesday is day 1! Scott and I decided to make a video blog. We want to try and make the "best" of this time in our lives and we both can find humor in all these shenanigans!!