9 weeks and the beautiful sound of the heartbeat!!!

Went to Tammy's office today (my nurse/midwife) and had all the wonderful prenatal tests done. I first had a urinalysis (all negative) and they gave me another pregnancy test- It was CLEARLY positive. The nurse checked my weight and asked me 100's of questions about medical/family history. Nurse then drew lots of vials of blood to check for everything under the sun. After that I talked with Tammy in her office about future appointments and what to expect in the upcoming months. Then I had a physical exam, including a pap. I told her since I am so use to going to Dr. so often and now that my appointments are farther apart I just need reassurance from her I am still pregnant... She told me that because of my past with infertility I will be getting a little extra special treatment like extra appointments and sonograms (Fine by me!!) She treats me like this is the one and only chance I will be pregnant but she said that is usually not the case. After my exam she said she was going to see if we can hear the heartbeat on the doppler. Tammy said since I am only 9 weeks today it may be difficult to hear but she will give it a try. Well, she was searching and searching and she was about to give up when we heard it! The baby's heartbeat was so much faster than mine and the relief I felt made me instantly choke up. I wish Scott was there to hear it but I know he will get to hear it eventually.
i have a sonogram scheduled for May 5th and my 4 week OB appointment on May 22nd. I still in shock I think! Still. It will sink in sooner or later!!! My mind is at ease but will be even more on May 5th when I can see my bean! I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!

My world

I framed the sonogram and put this quote with it. What it says is just perfect....

8 weeks. Welcome to the emotional rollar coaster ride!

Last week I was a hungry hungry hippo. (One day I threw my packed lunch away and ate an entire twisted frosty from Wendy's and never knew ice cream could taste so good!!)This week... I am a hot emotional mess! It took me hours to get to work yesterday because I was lethargically tired and could not stop crying. I was crying about work, Scott's afternoon work shift, my appetite and laziness, and most of all I am still so scared I'm going to miscarry. I am having a hard time believing that we are going to have a baby in 7 months. Going through infertility for almost 3 years as well as having miscarriage makes it extremely difficult for me to think and stay positive. I just want to enjoy every second of this pregnancy and its hard when I sometimes start to feel like its all going to be taken away... I'm just anxious to see my midwife so I can talk with her and she can hopefully ease my nerves a bit. I am also use to seeing a specialist at least once a week and now that I am released from his care and my appointments are farther apart I am having a hard time reassuring myself everything is still OK. I will make it though!! With the help from Scott and my family (whom I apologize to if I'm driving you nuts!!)

On a morning sickness note- I don't think I can just get up and shower and get ready for work in the morning then worry about eating breakfast. I think I may take it slower and eat first. I'm finding that taking a shower is like running a marathon (grasping for air and all!) and I get very queasy too so time to switch it up and see if that helps.

I've learned that my uterus is the size of a grapefruit this week and the baby's eyelids and ears are growing as well as the tip of the nose and fingers and toes! The aortic and pulmonary valves of the heart are present and the tubes that lead from the throat to lungs are branching. The baby is the size of a pinto bean! Ole!

Here is a picture

Midwives are making a comeback!!

Here is an article that was in the Vindicator about 3 local certified nurse/midwives. I see Tammy Pangilinan.
http://www.vindy.com/news/2008/apr/08/changing-face-of-midwives/

7 weeks

Well I am 7 weeks today and it is finally sinking in.... I am trying so hard to relax and enjoy this pregnancy instead of worrying constantly. I am just amazed that there is a kidney bean sized life inside of me that has a beating heart and all it's organs are developing- including his or her brain. I am flabbergasted!! I feel so honored to be this baby's home for the next 8 months!

There is a nice website with real life pictures. Here is the pictures for week 7. So neat!

I also made my nieces and nephew a picture frame to surprise them with the news! I am especially excited to tell my oldest niece and Goddaughter (7 years old) she's going to be a new cousin!

Our Butterball Baby is due Nov. 26th!!!

Whew. I can breath a little. One baby! and we saw the heartbeat. I am in shock still! It is so hard to believe that this wait is over. I just want everything to be OK. I can tell the worrying never ends! We got released from Dr. Hecht's care today. It is so bitter sweet because I've been seeing him since late July 2006 and I have a strong bond with the office staff. They are so wonderful and sweet but on the other hand I am glad to not be a patient of his any more! I am returning to my nurse/midwife's care and have an appointment for April 22nd. The staff at her office are so wonderful too. They called me last Sat. night to tell me Congratulations (Dr. Hecht sent them a letter) and when i called to make my appointment they were so happy for me!!! I am blessed with great doctor's so far!! I just love the personalization at the midwife's office. If I was still seeing my old OB/GYN they would have no idea who I was when I called... so I think the switch to a nurse/midwife was the right choice for me. Anyway- I got my first picture of Baby Johnson! 7 weeks tomorrow and my due date is November 26, 2008. One day before Thanksgiving, 2 days before Grandpa G's birthday and 9 days before Uncle Mikey's birthday! We are so so so so happy and thrilled. I cannot wait to be a mother! and I've never seen Scott so ecstatic! He is glowing!! Here's to a happy, healthy pregnancy! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Say cheese!! Baby Johnson's 1st pic!

6 weeks preggers

Well I'm 6 weeks pregnant today and I'm still so nervous. Less than one week until the sonogram. I can't even explain how anxious I am!!! I am so exhausted. It feels like I'm pulling an all nighter everyday even though I'm getting 8+ hours of sleep a night! I also usually feel pretty yucky after I eat breakfast and when I'm at work until about 11am. No running to the toilet as of yet but I was close today... Wait, wait, wait. Ugh that's all I ever do!