Glad to be wrong again

I really thought I was going to get bad news today. I felt like I had this "feeling" that this pregnancy is not going too well. I am so glad to be wrong!! My hcg number went from a 225 to 4,914 in one week! That's a great, normal, wonderful increase!!! Now just one more week to wait until our first sonogram (April 7th). Scott switched days at work so he could be there. I absolutely cannot wait to see our little bean!!!!! I can't even comprehend seeing our baby inside of me! I am still in shock. I really am. I CAN'T believe everything is going so well so far. I am so grateful- I can't even explain it. This really could be it! Our wait may be over! My dreams, hopes, and prayers are coming true. What a blessing. A huge, huge blessing. I am so freakin' excited for the months to come. I think I will be the happiest pregnant woman ever!!!

I'm nervous again

I hope I can make it until the 7th of April. I am so so so nervous. I was feeling pretty good, confident and positive and now I'm getting more and more nervous for Friday. I just hope everything is still ok. I have been pretty tired and just feeling yucky (a bit nauseous) almost everyday this week. And other parts of me are a little sore that I know are supposed to be sore so all good signs I guess. I just have this HUGE fear in the back of my head. Friday is almost here- just one more full day of work. I am 5 weeks and 1 day pregnant. I just want to fully enjoy and relax and I know that's not going to happen until after we see the heartbeat. Scott is still positive as ever- and we definitely told more people than I anticipated. But the more prayers the better! I'm just so busy at work and I just don't want to do anything- partly because I am tired and partly because I don't want to concentrate on anything else right now. I will make it. Right??

I made it and good news- I'm normal so far

YEAH! Could this really be it?? My hcg count was 225! Woo Hoo. That's a normal rise and better than the last pregnancy. I know you shouldn't read too much into this number but my 1st pregnancy when I knew I was going to miscarry my hcg # was 284 and i was 5 weeks and 6 days pregnant. Today I am 4 weeks and 3 days pregnant and my number is 225. It's a little over 8x's what it was on 96 hours ago! My nurse told me that I'm allowed to be a little optimistic but not excited until we hear the heartbeat. Because of my history they want to do a 3rd count next Friday then if all goes well my 1st sonogram will be April 7th!!!!!! AHHHHHHH. I can't wait. I hope all goes well. I can't even tell you how much I have thanked God and just prayed and prayed and prayed. There's no doubt in my mind that the timing of everything that has happened is the work of God and my guardian angels.
2 years and 7 months! Wow I can't wait to erase you from my mind!

It's going to be a looooong week.

The nurse called. I am definitely pregnant!! Woo Hoo! My hcg # was a 27. All that number means at this point is that I am pregnant. When I go back on Friday (4 days from now!) they will take another hcg count. Early in your pregnancy hcg levels should double "about" every 48 hours or so. I have nightmare flashbacks of last year. Think positive! Think positive! Think positive. How am I going to make it until Friday!

Holy Shit! It says Pregnant!

Wow. What a few weeks its been. A few days after the IUI I thought it didn't work. I was convinced I wasn't pregnant because I felt OK and I didn't have that feeling I had when I was pregnant last year- where I just knew I either had to be very sick or pregnant. I felt fine and it was pissing me off. So I decided to prepare myself for the disappointment and bought 2 first response pregnancy tests and took the first on on Friday March 14th. 10 days after insemination. It was negative- just as I thought. I began to get upset that day but not upset as I usually get. I was still holding on to the little hope that maybe I tested too early. I took the 2nd one on Sunday morning the 16th. I immediately saw one pink line and went back to bed. I told Scott it was negative and we both started to get upset. I didn't even know what to say to him? He got up to get tissue from the bathroom and then asked me "Was that 2nd faint line there when you looked at it?" I sprang out of bed and sure enough there was the faintest 2nd pink line I've EVER seen. We studied the line for at least 40mins. We decide that we will buy another test just to see what it says. So off the the store. I decide to buy digital pregnancy test this time so we don't have to deal with lines or plus or minus. It just tells you in words- Pregnant or Not Pregnant. I took it and Scott told me to walk away from it so I did. I told him to go look at it a few minutes later- he told me to go look at it- so I did. I almost fainted. It said Pregnant! WHAT? I kinda didn't believe it. I was in shocked. I sat there and just tried to absorb what was going on. Could I really be pregnant? Could this be it? Is the wait over? Oh my Gosh- what if I miscarry again? What if there's more than 2? There was a gazillion questions running through my head. I couldn't wait to go to the Dr. to get this confirmed. i just wanted to make it to the heartbeat. I just want to hear a heartbeat. Please God, let this be it.
Here's a picture of the home pregnancy test 3/16/08. It's blurry (I need a new camera)

Scott is absolutely ecstatic. I can't even explain his reaction. It was the sweetest moment of our 10 years together. He kept hugging me and kissing and talking to my stomach already. Just staring into my eyes and saying how happy he was. He was filled with so much emotion. He cried tears of joy throughout the night. He was just glowing! He kept reassuring me that everything is going to be alright that nothing is going to happen. The wait is over. I wish I felt as confident as he does but I have my first pregnancy experience in the back of my head. I just want to make it. I will get more and more excited as the day and Dr. appointments pass. One day at a time. I am now waiting for my blood results to come back and I will be going back to get more blood work on Wednesday to see if my HCG numbers are rising properly. I really hope and pray this is the end and also the beginning.

Now the waiting

Well,

Friday Feb. 29th my dose stayed at 150IU's. I went back to RE Saturday and he told me to take the Antagon shot as soon as I left the office to prevent me from ovulating and then take 75IU of Gonal in the evening at my normal time. On Sunday we took the Antagon in the morning when we woke up then we triggered with the HCG shot at 11pm at night. The IUI was yesterday morning- Tuesday March 4th. We had a good count 38million after wash. I was more relaxed during the actually IUI too so hopefully that helps. I had my normal cramping afterwards and almost all day and night. I took the day off work so I could relax- I don't think I moved from the couch all day!! I start progesterone on Thursday and then WAIT. Not fun. But as the new phrase goes- "It is what it is..."
Let's hope the waiting goes fast. Sounds silly but I hope I start to not feel well- that would make me happy and excited! (pathetic isn't it?)