Earrings

Yesterday Carter and I went to the 11 o'clock service at Greenford Christian. Sometimes I let him come to the adult service instead of the children's program. Today I wanted him to go to the children's program so he wouldn't have to just sit there and be quiet and not move all around. I dropped him off in his classroom and headed over to the main building for service. I picked my seat in my usual spot/section/side. I sat down and there was no one around me yet.  I see tons of other people chatting with each other and big families coming in and sitting down and I start to feel bad like there was a big spotlight on me. Service starts and more and more people start piling in the church. I'm estimating there are approximately 300 people that attend the 11 o'clock service on any given Sunday. So we sing 2 songs and sit down. As soon as I sit down a couple with a baby carrier come and sit in the aisle right in front of me. "Great..." I think "This baby is going to upset me" "Why did they have to sit right in front of me in the huge church" Then I look at the woman's earrings. They were doves. Each ear had a beautiful dove earring. There they were- my boys.
I look down at my bracelet and the two doves on it - it is on the same arm as my tattoo with the boy's names and two doves. I knew this was God working through this woman and her earrings. It sounds a bit ridiculous but I know this is why that woman put on those earrings this morning and sat directly in front of me. I no longer felt lonely. My boys were there with me. I stared at those earring the entire service.
Their daughter was hands down one of the cutest and happiest babies I have ever seen. I knew she was around the age Nathan would of been had he been born in March. When this baby looked in my eyes and smiled at me I almost felt like it was Nathan saying "Don't worry Mom, I am so happy in Heaven and having the best time!" Looking at this baby girl brought me joy and it was amazing to have that feeling again when looking at a baby.
I was so compelled tell this woman what she has done for me today. I was nervous though. "Is she going to think I am a crazy!?" I just HAD to tell her though. When service was over and I say "Excuse me, I have to tell you the dove earrings you are wearing have brought so much comfort to me today. I lost twin boys earlier this year and they come to me in the form of doves" I show her my bracelet and my tattoo. Her eyes immediately well with ears as do mine. I say "There's a reason you sat in front of me today- Thank you". She hugged me, said "I am so sorry" then put her hand on my face and just looked into my eyes like she could feel my pain. It is a moment I will never forget. God used this caring woman, this stranger, to remind me my boys are not dead, they are Alive!

God is Great.