I feel weird admitting this. But hey I am weird! I love these follicles like they are my babies already. I really do. I feel like I did when I was first pregnant with Carter- when I didn't feel pregnant or look pregnant. But I knew I loved that little being in me with everything I had.
I know my follies aren't embryos yet but I keep thinking one of these follicles that I have been growing and taking care of already is going to turn into an embryo, then eventually a fetus, then finally be in my arms. It's kind of surreal to think about. OK I'm done with the mushy shit.
Went back to Dr. today. I can happily say I see the light at the end of the tunnel!!! Tonight I take my Gonal 300IU and 150IU Menopur like normal. Saturday, I take my Cetrotide in AM then most likely a lower dose of Gonal/Menopur in PM. (Nurse will call to let me know how many IU's to take) THEN, Sunday I take my Cetrotide in AM, be in Akron at 7:45 for my last ultrasound and bloodwork, take my HCG trigger shot late at night (Probably around 10P.M.) to prepare for EGG RETREIVAL ON TUESDAY AUGUST 5TH!!!! Can you tell I'm anxious with a side of excitement?!
When Dr. was scanning me today I just shut my eyes most of the time because
1. It was quite uncomfortable 2. I am just plain tired of thinking and analyzing all this. Time to put it in the Dr.'s hands. It's his turn to take over and "do his thang".
From what he told me- most follicles today were around 15mm. He said 2 follies have to reach 18mm to trigger. We assuming two follies will be 18mm by Sunday- hence the appointment in Akron on Sunday to ensure this has happened.
Words cannot express how happy I am to lower how many needles are being shoved in my body per day. I have reached my limit I think. Tears begin to fall now right before injection time. I am super sore and bruised.
What am I doing this weekend you ask?? I will be praying.
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