A few months ago Carter and I were having a conversation about the twins and God. Carter told me God made them die and they weren't "his brothers/"in his family" because they weren't on Earth. I was so hurt and shocked to hear this. I explained to Carter, God isn't a mean God. He doesn't "make people die". He is a good, loving Father and His ways are better than ours. He sees a different perspective in Heaven. Our Earthly life is a pin drop compared to an eternity in Heaven. God has a job for everyone. He needed the twins in Heaven. Their job wasn't for Earth it was for Heaven. You do have brother's Carter- they just don't live on Earth, they live in Heaven and you will get to meet them when you go there.
Sometimes when I talk to Carter I don't think he is listening. But then this week happened.
April 22, 2105 was Nathan's scheduled C-section. It was going to be my second son's birthday. When this day passed this year I said out loud to Scott "Today would be celebrating Nathan's 1st birthday, if he was alive" Not thinking C was listening Carter says. "He is alive Mom". Tears ran down my face. Your right Carter, he is alive and I bet he is celebrating with Jesus.
Yesterday after church, we picked Carter up from the kid's church program. As we were walking to the car he was telling me a game they were playing and one of the questions was "If you have brothers or sisters... (do a certain thing)" This is usually a sore subject for C- being an only child but he says "I went up there when they said that because I will never forget".I love seeing the roots grow deep in Carter. It is amazing.
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